Insanity - Week 1

Hello lovelies! <3

I'm so glad to write this post because it has been one seriously hard week. Changing my hole life with just couple of days is not as easy at it seemed or as I hoped. I've studied a lot about healthy eating in my past life so the knowing of WHAT to eat isn't as hard as actually making it all come true, especially with limited budget. I guess the first month is really a huge experiment, but what comforts me is that at least I'm doing something for me. Even if my eating is not as good as it could be, I'm still doing the workout as powerfully as I can. I'm really trying to give my best!

I can honestly say that the first week has been .. well, quite unpleasant. I guess it's stepping out of my comfort zone, pushing myself to the limits where it hurts so much that I just can't take it anymore. I don't want to disappoint me nor Rauno, who is so extremely supportive and even eats exactly as I do so I wouldn't have any slips. Nevertheless, yesterday I had a little break down during the workout. I think I didn't do my stretching very well, I had been aching for many many days so my body was exhausted anyways and when I did this push up kind of exercise, I just .. broke and started to cry. Like really cry. Maybe it was because I hadn't been so good as I wanted and felt like a failure - I've had some slips with eating and everything and all those new exercises are so different for me that I just feel as if I haven't done as well as I should have. That's the thing with me - I push myself sometimes TOO much. Rauno told me several times that I have to do the workout in my own pace, that I don't have to nor need to do it as quickly and as well as the people in the video do, but when I do it in my own pace, I feel that I'm a failure who can't keep up with the workout and therefore I feel as if I'm not doing enough...  What I can do and have to do is keep going, keep pushing, not slipping anymore and reminding myself that I can do it! I can't give up, I can't allow temptations or fall-backs.

Then again, I've made some pictures of the dishes I've had this week (not to even mention the amazing salads that I've eaten when we've gone out to eat - for example I tried this amazing warm wok salad with grilled chicken, I tried tuna salad .. mm that's the kind of life I love!). Seeing these pictures actually is comforting because all of those things tasted amazing and now I want to share them with you too!

 1. Mini-ciabattas with smoked fish (in my case it was mackerel, but you can use whatever fish you like), cheese and salad. It's a perfect little lunch! You don't have to worry because of the ciabatta's because they are filled with fibers.

 2. Smoked mackerel salad with eggs, carrots and a bit of cheese. I have this illness called "I have to put just a tiny bit of cheese everywhere". It actually doesn't give you any extra calories you need to worry about, since the amount is so small. It rather does good for you :)

 3. A classic breakfast - oat meal porridge with oranges. It was cooked not with sugar, but with HONEY! Just 1 tbls and it tastes amazing :)

 4. Easy dinner for every person with very busy lifestyle - rice, a little salad and a beefsteak.

5. And another great lunch - sandwiches with whole wheat bread, ham, cheese, tomato and lettuce; to end the meal - a nice apple. Yumm! 

These are all the examples of what I have eaten this week :) As the time goes, I will get more used to the new lifestyle and it will all get better. I must say that actually the workout itself is AMAZING! It's the best one I've seen in a long time - you really have to push yourself in the workout, but there are little water breaks, there is a LOT of stretching and overall it is the best you could ever do at home, not even having to go to the gym. Also, 1 day per week you have recovery which means basically yoga, haha. It was amazing and I really enjoy the workout. I just hope that soon I will be stronger and can do everything better!  But right now, only with 1 week I've become better in push-ups - before I really couldn't do any, now I can do several. It's all getting better, I know that!

I hope you like these weekly Insanity stories. It gives me so much strength to know that some of you out there cheer for me and give some support as well. Thank you, my lovelies! <3